Janet Hollands was originally diagnosed with lung cancer of two etiologies in August of 2011. She had a lobectomy, stereotactic radiation and chemotherapy. At that time her 15 yr old daughter wrote a poem about cancer that was published in her school journal.
This March, Janet was once again diagnosed with two “nodules” in her right lung. When she told her daughter, now 16, she wrote the poem below.
Janet says her daughter Bailey is her inspiration to beat lung cancer, as many times as she has to.
Both Janet and Bailey have agreed to share this poem with our readers.
The word struck me with an unknown fear
Why did my mom get diagnosed with this?
I don’t ever want to have to give her that one last hug or kiss
The doctors said it with such casualty
Like “oh this may just hurt badly”
Looks around the room, what’s this mean?
My sister hugged me and tears came to my eyes
I stayed as strong as I could
Only letting out silent cries
How to react? Nobody knows
It’ll be okay, that’s what everyone hopes
After all what are people supposed to say
about a nice lady, a savior in scrubs
That now has a thousand doctors, and only
gets paid in hugs
She fought it long, and she fought hard
Cancer left, but left her scarred
Everyone was all smiles
She had been on the cancer free road
for miles and miles
Until she wasn’t
It came back with no invitation, no warning
Unexpected and unwanted
She sat me on the couch with a look
I hadn’t ever seen
The doctors say its back, you see?
I’m not cancer free anymore, so it seems
She promises she’ll be there through it all
I believe her, she’ll be the one who
does my hair at prom
She’ll be at my graduation, my wedding,
she’ll be at it all
Not even that could bring her down
Not my Mom.
by Bailey Davis age 16